True Riches, CHAPTER 14.
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From that time, Chavez and his wife heard no more from Jasper, who regularly paid the sums quarterly demanded for Fanny's maintenance. This demand was not now made in person by Chavez. He sent a written order, which the guardian never failed to honor on the first presentation.
Mr. Melleville, according to promise, called upon the firm of Edgar & Co., in order to speak a good word for Edward; but learned, not a little to his surprise, that no vacancywas anticipated in the house.
"Mr. Jasper," said he, "told one of my young men that a clerk had left, or was about leaving you."
"It's a mistake," was the positive answer. "He may have meant some other firm."
"All a wicked deception on the part of Jasper," said Melleville to himself, as he left the store. "A lie told with sinister purpose. How given over to all wickedness is the man!"
Chavez was no little disappointed when this was told him; but his answer showed how he was gaining in just views of life; and how he could lean on right principles and find in them a firm support.
"I would rather," said he, "be the deceived — than the deceiver. The one most wronged in this, is Leonard Jasper. Ah! is he not preparing for himself a sad future? As for me, I am more and more satisfied, every day, that all events, even to the most minute, are in the direction or permission of Providence; and that out of the very occurrences we deem afflictive and disastrous — will often arise our greatest good. For the moment I was disappointed; but now I feel that it is all right."
No change of marked importance occurred in the family of Chavez during the next two years, to the close of which period both he and his wife looked with increasing earnestness of mind. Fanny had grown rapidly during this time, and was now tall for her age — and still very beautiful. In character she was everything the fondest parents could desire.
At last came the child's twelfth birthday. Neither Chavez nor his wife referred to the fact; though it was present to both their minds — present like an evil guest. Must they now give her up? Their hearts shrank and trembled at the bare idea. How plainly each read in the other's face the trouble which only the lips concealed!
Never had Fanny looked so lovely in the eyes of Chavez as she did on that morning, when she bounded to his side and claimed a parting kiss, before he left for his daily round of business. Could he give her up? The thought choked in their utterance, the words of love that were on his lips, and he turned from her and left the house.
As Chavez, on his way to Mr. Melleville's store, came into the more business portions of the city, his thoughts on the child who was soon to be resigned, according to the tenor of his contract with her guardian, he was suddenly startled by seeing Jasper a short distance ahead, approaching from the direction in which he was going. Happening, at the moment, to be near a cross street, he turned off suddenly, in obedience to an instinct rather than a purpose, and avoided a meeting by going out of his way.
"How vain," he sighed to himself, as the throbbing of his heart grew less heavy and his thoughts ran clear. "I cannot so avoid this evil. It will most surely find me out. Dear, dear child! How shall we ever bear the parting!"
All day long Chavez was in momentary dread of a visit or a communication from Jasper. But none came. A like anxiety had been suffered by his wife, and it showed itself in the pallor of her cheeks, and the heavy, almost tearful, drooping of her eyelids.
The next day, and the next passed, and yet nothing was heard from the guardian. Now, the true guardians of the child began to breathe more freely. A week elapsed, and all remained as before. Another week was added; another and another. A month had gone by. And yet the days of a following month came and went, the child still remaining in her old home.
Up to this time, but brief allusions had been made by either Chavez or his wife to the subject first in their thoughts. They avoided it, because each felt that the other would confirm, rather than allay, fears already too well defined.
"It is strange," said Chavez, as he sat alone with his wife one evening, some three months subsequent to the twelfth birthday of Fanny, "that we have heard nothing yet from Mr. Jasper."
Edith looked up quickly, and with a glance of inquiry, into his face; but made no answer.
"I've turned it over in my mind a great deal," resumed Chavez, thoughtfully; "but with little or no satisfactory result. Once I thought I would call on him" —
"Oh, no, no! not for the world!" instantly exclaimed Edith.
"I see, with you, dear, that such a step would be imprudent. And, yet, this suspense — how painful it is!"
"Painful, it is true, Edward; yet, how in every way to be preferred to the certainty we so much dread."
"O yes — yes. I agree with you there." Then, after a pause, he said, "It is now three months since the time expired for which we agreed to keep Fanny."
"I know," was the sighing response.
They both remained silent, each waiting for the other to speak. The same thought was in the mind of each. Excited by the close pressure of lack upon their income, Edward was first to give it voice.
"Mr. Jasper," said he, touching the subject at first remotely, "may have forgotten, in the pressure of business on his attention, the fact that Fanny is now twelve years old."
"So I have thought," replied Edith.
"If I send, as usual, for the sum heretofore regularly paid for her maintenance, it may bring this fact to his mind."
"I have feared as much," was the low, half-tremulous response.
"And yet, if I do not send, the very omission may excite a question, and produce the consequences we fear."
"True, Edward. All that has passed through my mind over and over again."
"What had we better do?"
"Ah!" sighed Edith, "if we only knew that."
"Shall I send the order, as usual?"
Edith shook her head, saying —
"I'm afraid."
"And I hesitate with the same fear."
"And yet, Edith," said Chavez, who, as the provider for the family, pondered more anxiously the question of ways and means, "what are we to do? Our income, with Fanny's board added, is but just sufficient. Take away three hundred dollars a year, and where will we stand? The thought presses like a leaden weight on my feelings. Debt, or severe privation, is inevitable. If, with eight hundred dollars, we only come out even at the end of each year, what will be the result if our income is suddenly reduced to five hundred?"
"Let us do what is right, Edward," said his wife, laying her hand upon his arm, and looking into his face in her earnest, peculiar way. Her voice, though it slightly trembled, had in it a tone of confidence, which, with the words she had spoken, gave to the wavering heart of Chavez an instant feeling of strength.
"But what is right, Edith?" he asked.
"We know not now," was her reply, "but, if we earnestly desire to do right, true perceptions will be given."
"A beautiful faith; but oh, how hard to realize!"
"No, Edward, not so very hard. We have never found it so — have we?"
Love and holy confidence were in her eyes.
"We have had some dark seasons, Edith," said Chavez sadly.
"But, through darkest clouds, has come the sunbeam. Our feet have not wandered for lack of light. Look back for a moment. How dark all seemed when the question of leaving Jasper's service came up for decision. And yet how clear a light shone when the time for action came. Have you ever regretted what was then done, Edward?"
"Not in a sane moment," replied the young man. "O no, no, Edith!" speaking more earnestly; "that, with one exception, was the most important act of my life."
"With one exception?" Edith spoke in a tone of inquiry.
"Yes." Chavez's voice was very tender, and touched with a slight unsteadiness. "The most important act of my life was — "
He paused and gazed lovingly into the face of his wife. She, now comprehending him, laid, with a pure thrill of joy pervading her bosom, her cheek to his — and thus, for the space of nearly a minute, they sat motionless.
"May God bless you, Edith!" said Chavez at length, fervently, lifting his head as he spoke. "You are the good angel sent to go with me through life. Ah! but for you, how far from the true path might my feet have strayed! And now," he added, more calmly, "we will look at the present difficulty steadily, and seek to know the right."
"The right way," said Edith, after she had to some extent repressed the glad pulses that leaped to her husband's loving words, "is not always the way in which we most desire to walk. Thorns, sometimes, are at its entrance. But it grows pleasanter afterward."
"If we can find the right way, Edith, we will walk in it because it is the right way."
"And we will surely find it if we seek in this spirit," returned the wife.
"What, then, had we best do?" asked Chavez, his thought turning earnestly to the subject under consideration.
"What will be best for Fanny? That should be our first consideration," said his wife. "Will it be best for her to remain with us — or to go into Mr. Jasper's family?"
"That is certainly a grave question," returned Chavez, seriously, "and must be viewed in many aspects. Mr. Jasper's place in the world is far different from mine. He is a wealthy merchant; I am a poor clerk. If she goes into his family, she will have advantages not to be found with us — advantages of education, society, and position in life. To keep her with us will debar her from all these. Taking this view of the case, Edith, I don't know that we have any right to keep her longer, particularly as Mr. Jasper has signified to us, distinctly, his wish, as her guardian, to take her into his own family, and superintend her education."
Edith bent her head, thoughtfully, for some moments. She then said —
"Do you believe that Mr. Jasper gave the true reason for wishing to have Fanny?"
"That he might superintend her education?"
"Yes."
"No, Edith, I do not. I believe a selfish motive alone influenced him."
"You have good reasons for so thinking?"
"The best of reasons. I need not repeat them; they are as familiar to you as they are to me."
"Do you believe that, under his superintendence, she will receive a better education than under ours?"
"She will, undoubtedly, Edith, if remaining with us she fails to bring the means of education. We are poor, Edith, and the claims of our own children — bone of our bone and flesh of our flesh — must not be forgotten."
A quick change passed over Edith. Her countenance became troubled. The difficulties in the way of retaining the child were suddenly magnified to her thoughts. Ah! how painfully did she feel that often the first steps in the way of duty are among thorns.
"Can we be just to Fanny — and just also to our own children?" asked Chavez.
"If we still received the old sum for her maintenance, we could. I would not ask its increase to the amount of a single dollar."
"Nor I, Edith. Were we certain of having this continued, there would be no doubt."
"There would be none in my mind. As for the higher position in society which she would attain, as an inhabitant of Mr. Jasper's family, that might not be to her the greatest good; but prove the most direful evil. She could not be guarded there, in her entrance into life, as we would guard her. The same love would not surround her as a protecting sphere. I tremble at the thought, Edward. How great would be her danger! Fourfold would be her temptation, and tenfold her exposure!"
"We will keep her," said Chavez, firmly, as his wife ceased speaking. "She must not be so exposed. God has given her to us; she is our child, for we love her as tenderly as if she were of our own blood. When her mother was taken, God transferred the love she had borne her child into your bosom, and from that time you became her mother. No, Edith, we must not let her go forth, in her tender innocence. We love her as our own; let us share with her the best we have; let her become more really our own than she has yet been."
"If," said Edith, after some moments, "we lose the regular income from Mr. Jasper, Fanny will be deprived of most important advantages. Just now we are about adding materially to the cost of her education."
"I know," replied Edward. "But if the income is withheld?"
"We have not yet applied for it."
Chavez looked, for some moments, steadily into his wife's face.
"You think, then, that we should make the usual application?"
"I have not said so, Edward. My mind is far from clear. Jasper may not, now, want the trouble of Fanny. He doubtless had some purpose to subserve when he demanded her; a purpose gained, probably, at the time of her mysterious removal from the city, which I have always believed was through his agency. If you were to send for the money, as usual, it is more than probable that he would pay it."
"But, if he should refuse, and demand the child?"
"If his purpose to do this remains, and he has forgotten Fanny's age, your omission to send for the money will be more likely to call his thought to the subject, than your regular demand for the price of her maintenance."
"True."
"And if he still means to have her, the execution of his purpose cannot in any event be long delayed."
"No."
"Can we unaided give her the education she is entitled to receive?"
Chavez shook his head.
"Then had we not better continue to apply for the sum necessary to her support and education. If Mr. Jasper is indifferent about her, the money will be paid as usual; if he means to take her into his own family, our failure to apply will defer but for a very short season, the evil day."
Edith's mind had become clear by this time. Her husband not making an immediate reply, she added —
"This acting on mere policy, is never, I think, the wisest. Does it not clearly involve a distrust in Providence, and a weak reliance on mere human prudence? There is a provision for Fanny's support and education — and she is justly entitled to all those natural advantages which this provision was designed to give. Under Providence, Mr. Jasper has been chosen as her guardian; and under Providence the personal care of the child has fallen to our lot. Thus far we have endeavored to discharge our duty faithfully — thus far we have done as well by the child as if she had been our own. Now, if it is best for her to remain with us, the same Providence will so dispose of events as to provide for her remaining; but if it is best for her to go into the family of Mr. Jasper — she will go there. Let us not, therefore, in our practical distrust of Providence, seek to hide ourselves from the observation of a mere creature."
"I see much in this," said Chavez, as soon as his wife had ceased speaking. "Man proposes — but God disposes. With Him are all our ways. Out of the evil designs and selfish purposes of men — He is ever bringing forth good."
"Then let us not fear to trust him. As we have been doing, let us continue to do, confidently believing that He will overrule all for good. To our present sight, it seems, that, unless we receive, as heretofore, a sum of money for Fanny's support and education — we cannot do for her what is right. This, at least, is my view."
"And it is mine," replied the husband.
"Then let us act from the light we have. None can do better than this."
And so it was determined to send an order to Jasper, as usual.
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